My heart is breaking and I don’t know how to do this. How do I grieve and continue to move through this? Chocolate therapy is not working. What I really need is you, your comfort, your peace.
Two and a half years ago, you sent me a very special gift in the form of my BFF Sharen. Now she’s moving back to the very place I said I’d never go again. Who says you don’t have a sense of humor? Now I’ll gleefully visit just to see her.
This is a deep sense of loss and I’m having chest pains. I don’t think it’s my illness. It’s just that my heart is breaking. Will it ever feel better?
I went to my allergist today – over by Sharen’s house and the *Famous* Starbucks. (We call it the Famous Starbucks because we saw Ed MacFrey and Clint Hurdle there.) You know, I rarely get coffee by myself. Sharen is in her new town, finding a house. When I called, she encouraged me to go alone.
It was nearly abandoned. I was so out of sorts I ordered the wrong drink. I didn’t stay. I was too sad thinking about days to come. (I’m going to have to find a new allergist.) On my way out of the parking lot, I knew it was the end of an era. There’s not too many reasons left to drive across the Great Divide.
Why do I feel like Jonah, complaining about something that you gave me in the first place? I’m grateful for the time we’ve had. Selfishly, I want her to stay… and yet I know it’s time for her to go. Yes, you called her and you have great plans for her in that new town. I know you have wonderful plans for me too. But right now, in this moment, it doesn’t feel like it.
I thought about putting an ad on Craig’s List for another friend like Sharen. These are just some of her unique personality strengths:
- Easy going
- Real and genuine
- Has overcome her past
- Yearns to grow in the Lord
- Gift of encouragement
- Able to Get Starbucks at a moments notice
- Likes to shop but isn’t addicted
- Has grown children and a solid marriage
- Young in body and spirit
- Loves God and her family
Never mind. As you can see, she is irreplaceable. I know we’ll still get to see each other, but neither of us is rich so it won’t be as often as we’d like.
Father, I need your help to get through this. I didn’t expect it to hurt this much. Comfort and protect her too. Bless her move and help her to find a good friend who will love her as much as I do.
Thanks for listening God. I love you.